Thursday, September 30, 2010


Thank you, Little One.

Thank you for being you.

For you have given your ol' mama

something to smile about today.

Thank you for reminding me that in this life, we do have a choice...and I choose to be like you. To believe. To trust. To see the good. To be happy.

To smile.

To always try and smile.

Thursday, September 23, 2010


She peeks her head into the computer screen and tentatively looks around. She swallows. There is a familiar face there, maybe two. They are waiting. She clears her throat, takes a deep breath, and begins to type...


September has brought change into our home, into our lives. Into our hearts. When I am able to gather my wits, when I am able to muster the courage that I am currently lacking, when I am feeling braver, I will attempt to explain. But for now...this:

Dylan has grown into a toddler this September, I feel like. I hang out with this little one just about every minute of every single day and yet I see it - change. He is growing, he is learning, he is absolutely thriving.

He had surgery in the beginning of the month for tubes

and has since then been on a mission to excel.

Cassidy has begun preschool this September and while she likes it well enough, I have a pretty strong inkling who was more excited on that very first day...

Dylan has been making progress by leaps and bounds with eating. We are down from 9 jars of baby food a day to ONE (or 2, but still!). He eats real food (albeit gluten free) for most of his snacks and meals which makes this mama's heart very happy. Oh, I can not tell you how satisfied I will feel when I can stride directly past the baby food isle at the grocery store without so much as a second glance. (Although knowing me, I will stop, look longingly at the millions of jars and say, "Awwwww baby food! Remember when...")...

He has started making many more sounds and has even begun trying to imitate spoken words. His signing is crazy - I don't have any idea how many he knows, but I am pretty sure it's more than either Cassidy or I know...

Cassidy has been her usual busy self, fully enjoying the beginning of our New England Fall.

Cassidy understands that there have been changes. It has not always been easy for her and knowing that hurts my heart. But she is smart, she is strong, and she is very much loved. I have much faith in my best girl...

In September, more pieces have come together for Dylan in the mobility department. One day, I looked over at him and just as if he's done it a million times before, he began to crawl across the room. I am talking crawling - real crawling - belly off the floor and everything.

He has been pulling to stand more and has started slowly cruising along various surfaces of our house.

He has perfected "The Funny Face" while standing. Now that is an accomplishment in and of itself if you ask me.

As each day passes, I feel like his personality becomes more and more lovable. I do not know quite how to explain my feelings for this little guy, but I can say that one look into those sweet blue eyes makes my own eyes blurry with tears.

One look makes me thank my lucky stars that he is here with me.