Right now, I feel like we are...stuck. We are stuck in a developmental rut and I don't know how to get out. How to move forward. In all honesty, I do not think I've noticed any progress over this past month, I really don't. I think back to where Dylan was last month and even the month before, and I'm pretty sure we have not moved forward. Even just a tiny bit. What gives? I understand that Dylan's development may be slower, but my concern is that we aren't even moving at a slow pace. We don't have a pace. In fact, I'm pretty sure we are at a standstill.
The two biggest struggles right now are sitting and feeding.
Sitting. Ah sitting. I swear, I try everything that I can possibly think of (yes we have a Bumbo, no he won't sit in it) but boy is he floppy! And when he is not flopping, he is arching his back due to reflux meds that aren't working properly (grr!). Sigh...I feel as though we are exactly where we've been for weeks and weeks and weeks. His PT tries to reassure me after each session, "He's going to get there! He is!". Again...I know this. I do. I just wish...I just wish I could see a tiny bit of progress. Maybe if he was able to sit - just for a second. Something. Anything. But, you know, it's not really even about sitting, I suppose. For me, it's about progress. About seeing a progression. Something to go on so that I can find hope and belief in the statement that he really is "going to get there".
And feeding. We're stuck here as well. Now, I must say, he does very well with eating lots and lots of stage two foods. In fact, he will eat just about any fruit or veggie (or gross meat/rice/veggie combo meal) that is offered. Our eating problems consist of the solid food (I mean, real solid food) and weaning/sippy cup variety.
Dylan's OT recommended that I start trying to give him those puff thingamajigs. Now, just so you know, on a good day, I am absolutely petrified of choking, so to sit and watch Dylan choke and gag on a puff (all the while smiling and telling him, "Good boy! Yayyyy!" so that he thinks this is all really fun and not scary) is pretty much torture. I have also tried those Baby Mum Mums and those didn't go over well either. Our OT has said that Dylan is "hyper sensitive" and thus the strong gag reflex. She said to just keep at it. So, we are.
I have also been trying (although not very hard...ahem) to wean Dylan from nursing. I have begun offering him a sippy cup with formula every day after lunch. I know there is a whole sippy cup debate out there, so maybe I shouldn't even be attempting the sippy? The honey bear cup just seems...I don't know. Like it probably won't work? I guess I just want him to have some independence with feeding. I have also tried a bottle as well as a cup with a recessed lid. Both basically unsuccessful.
Am I doing something wrong? Or...maybe it's not necessarily what I'm doing wrong. Maybe I'm just not doing something quite right. Or maybe this is just...the way it is.