Tuesday, December 28, 2010

The Happiness Project

We were at the library this morning making our way towards the Children's Room. We had just walked in and Dylan was already flailing about in the stroller. Out of habit I said, "Shhhh... Please.". Cassidy was insistent on taking off her jacket even though I had just asked her to please not do that. I was sweating even though it was 22 degrees outside. I took a deep breath and glanced over at a table nearby. Among this table of neatly stacked books was one that was differently placed. It caught my eye and I picked it up. "The Happiness Project", by Gretchen Rubin...

Lately I have been feeling a deep desire to find...something. An answer. A purpose. A focus. Energy. I'm searching and searching, but really, what exactly is it that I am looking for anyway? Peace? Meaning? Contentment?

Yes, all of those things, and more, too, but deep down, way deep down in my gut I want to be happier. I know that sounds obvious and anticlimactic, but I mean it. I want. to be. HAPPIER! I want to feel true happiness in this one life that I have.

I want to appreciate the things that truly matter.

I want to make things happen, take control, make a difference, be better. I want to dig up what I know is in there somewhere.

Yes. I want to be happier. And that is not to say that I am currently unhappy. Not at all. I am as blessed as can be! It's just that I know there is more...there is definitely more.

See, I wasn't even looking for a book this morning. I am right in the middle of a great book, actually, but this - this book was there for a reason, I just know it. So I picked it up, checked it out and have read 32 pages so far. I'm sold and I'm going for it.

I discovered that there is actually a blog, The Happiness Project. On this blog is a one minute video, The Days are Long but the Years are Short. I clicked on the link and began to watch it. I had no idea what it was going to be about, really. Cassidy sat there next to me eating her fruit cup, spilling juice all over the place. We had just finished painting and I had just finished getting frustrated with her as she had managed to get the red paint all over her hands and in her hair. The video finished and I looked at her. She smiled at me and I cried...

The Happiness Project. I have no idea exactly what I am going to do, but I am going to do something. And what better time to start it than right now.